Holidays

And here is the holiday time. I am sitting here, watching "Fantastic Four", eating pizza and and just enjoying a full day off of no obligations whatsoever. Very fun times. Last night I went to a Christmas party with some friends. And it just really made me think of what this season is really about..I had more fun watching movies and playing Guitar Hero III than the gift giving or anything like that. Most people don't really remember what the season TRULY means. I want to put the Christ back in Christmas. Most people seem to have left him out.

NONONONONONONONONOOOOO!!!!

http://www.variety.com/article/VR1117997365.html?categoryid=13&cs=1



why, oh why can't anyone think of their own movies!!!?
This is true remake blasphemy. This film along with the likes of Citizen Kane, Wizard of Oz, Gone With the Wind etc is one that should NEVER be remade. If you haven't seen the original do it. it is a beautifully shot, Gothic romantic tale of true love, and that it never can die.
CURSE YOU STEPHEN NORRINGTON!!!! HOW DARE YOU EVEN DISCUSS REMAKING THIS!!!?

Wintertime

But good granny it's cold!
Even for me, and I usually don't get affected by this. Ah well. As I sit and totally procrastinate on my papers, I realized something:
I don't think I want to be at college. I want to make something of myself, but do I really? Am I just letting my ego try to get the better of myself; do I really want to do this? During the few weeks I wasn't attending FVCC this semester, I did feel better about things, and here, I am not enjoying myself and all that God has given me. It might just be the school, but I dunno, I sure didn't care for high school much either....And I want it to warm to the point of making snowballs. That is not too much to ask I think.

ruminations

So I talked to the college people. I didn't expect them to be so...supportive with me. They want naught but to help me, and I never really got much in the way of support from many people. i am finishing this semester (don't know how I am) and take next semester to pay off this one (REALLY don't know how I am gonna do that!)
And I am trying to figure out my own life. As I sit on the cusp of a new year, I am trying to figure what I need, what I want, and what i don't need.
What I need is to be more focused in my walk with the Lord, and to be more dilligent in my studies OUTSIDE the church.
What I want is a relationship with someone who can share my faith, and strengthen it, not bring it down, and who is comfortable with how I am.
What I don't need is things that bring me farther from the God I love.
Things like physicallity in relationships, music or movies or anything like that that is degrading or depraved, and more important than anything, relationships of any kind with people who lead me astray from the path.
Let's see what the new year brings.

Errrrr

So...I had decided to not attend the college a few weeks ago, and today my advisor and a teacher both called me within five minutes of each other. I am going to meet up with my advisor tomorrow and, yeah nervous.
From once, I am actually nervous.
I usually don't get like that, but tonight I am. I do not like the idea of doing this, but at least for the next two weeks, will be there, spectacularly failing the classes; mainly because they won't let me stop going.
I really do not like it this, and I am so unsure about it.

And here....we......go....

You Opened My Eyes

God never fails to astound me with how much He loves me.
I am always want to know what else I can do to live up to His expectations, and also struggle with the concept that I will always fall short, as I am human, and prone to stumbling. However, I know He is there to help my dust off my shoulders, and through people here on earth and The Holy Spirit, I am marching onward, into marvelous light I'm running!