Wowsers!!!!

Oy it has been a while. Sorry for that....oh wait, I don't think anyone actually reads this lol. Anyways, I have a new job. McDonalds ain't exactly the Rit, but hey its paying my bills, so I cannot complain. I also have a facebook fan page thingy now for my art specifically, search Art By Doty. Have some art hanging at a local cafe thing, so that is also cool. Other than that ntm else to really report, True Believers (yay Stan Lee ref) so, until next time i feel like ranting!

God Paged Me, Pt.5

I am coming to a decision. I am going to be scaling back on things. What do I mean? I am first and foremost, cutting down on serving at Fresh Life. Before y'all flip, hear this: I am still going to be doing every other Sunday, and Wednesday. I however will not being in FLG the next go around, and not going to serve Saturdays. Veritas is something that I like, I will make it, but if I don't every single week, the world will not stop spinning, flinging us all into the cosmos. The strain of 5 days at church a week and trying to find a job , and just general stress over the last two months has taken a toll, and I am actually combating illness right now for it. I am also trying to get employment, and having as much free time as possible will be a boost (much more so than the dang hair cut). Also, as I find myself being more drawn to music, now that I have a few nights more free, I think I now have the time to really focus on my guitar, writing as wella s art in general. I am putting apps in where I can, and will continue to until I find work.

God Paged Me, pt. 4

.."I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I"m never alone

And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life

We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen"- Barlow Girl 'Never Alone'

This has been a twisted road. I feel things compelling me to put comprimises on that which I tell myself I cannot. Things that are pulling my towards that which is not good. Correction: In THIS time, it is not. Later down the road yes. Not right now. I had a big rant last night about things, how unfair life was, why good people seem to suffer alot. I sat there in tears, and anger and sorrow and pain and brief moments of ending things to get away from pain for good flashed by. This morning, I awoke feeling like crap. I am hurting. It is hurt because of how i am different, and many don't seem to understand why. They are so set in their patterns that anything different is not good. I am so feeling like Job right now! He ahd a 20 odd chapter rant about how unfair things were, but in the end rememebred that all things come from God, and for a reason. Love DOES exisit. Jesus loved all he knew even those who were driving nails into his hands. "Father forgive them for they know not what they do" (Luke 23:34) I mean seriously? He prayed for those who were driving nine inch spikes into His arms, and felt nothing but love for them. I am so reminded by the song lyrics above about that. God is with me, even when no one else is.

It has been quite some time. I honestly forgot about it. No one reads this anyway though, so I am not sure why i add more posts.

ER Visits=Amazign Oppurtunites

Ok for those who don't know- Last Friday/early Saturday I was experieancing major tingles and mumb type sensations all over, a lot in my feet, and alo in my hands and elswhere. Saturday I left work early, and Sunday just spent laying around and resting. Monday they came back, but Tuesday evening it wasn't too bad. Wednesday (last night, the 9th) was NOT the case. I was standing in worship, and suddenly a wave overcame me, and I went to the foyer, and nearly fainted. After getting outside, I was starting to feel a little better, but still not good. It was decided that i needed to eat, and when our crew went to the resturant I was (as andy put it) "swooning", and he and Josh had me sit. At the table, I was kinda in and out, and was spacing out something firece. (The waitress was asking me a question three times before I knew something was being said to me). Andy and Josh porceeded to take me up to the ER, as they felt it was in my best interests. Once there, I was given some medicine that styarted with an "A", I am not sure what it was (but man was it niiiiiice...) and I am being wheeled in for a CAT Scan, I was talking to the dude taking me in. And yet even with all my ordea;, I somehow ended up on the subject of God. And then proceeded to talk to him about Skull Church, and just God in general. And yet, in the middle of ll that I am dealing with, why is it that was what I could focus on? There is always oopurtunites. Even in our worst circumstyances, you never know how much your talk to someone can impact someone else. 
Don't worry, I am fine btw. No life threatning I may just have to live with anxiety issues for my life. Ciao!

Through Glass

This is purely a retrospecitve blog. I have been looking back at the last nine months and realizing this one fact.

I am someone new this year, moreso than ever before. I started this year engaged. I was trashed and dumped less than two months afterwards. I have grown into a person who really doesn't care anymore, in that I have given all my worries to God. I really don't worry about anything anymore. And I have really stopped caring what others think. If yo don't like me cause I dress in a gothic sense, and thats how my mind is? Well thats your deal not mine.  I am aslo growing in my faith and learning to place my trust in Him, and I like thre results. The other big revelation is I am on the cusp of a two month anniversary with my girlfriend Criss. She is quite possibly, the best girl I ever met, a strong willed, strong in faith woman.  She and ia re so similar and yet different. I am so excited to visit her this fall (she happens to live over in Germany currently, and we were friends for three years befoorehand, she was born here in MT). I cannot get over the fact that right now, with all the trials i have at home and whatnot, I stil wouldn't trade it for anything. We are placed trials that we overcome them and grow, so whyh would you only praise God for the good? You take the good and the bad, both are from the Lord, and you need them both, otherwise you will never grow.

And now for the news for parrots

Yes. So the last few weeks have held a few new developments. I am in a relationship now, with my very good friend Criss. (for those who already thought we had been dating, it was official on the 9th of July.)
Planning a trip to visit on Halloween. That will be awesome. Hours are picking up at the bookstore, and we are opening a new bargain store, which is awesome (increase in hours that be)
I am all in all, very pleased about things right now.....save for one thing.
I am trying to focus on reading the Word more. That's about the biggest issue. I dig into it now and again but need to make it a daily habit. Silly me.