So, its been a while I know. Halloween and now Thanksgiving have come and gone, and the Christmas season with all its unbridled shopping mayhem greed and avarice has come in full force. Why do I characterize it so? Because of the insanity that Black Friday makes it. People pepper spraying each other so they can get a damn X-Box before the others can come near. Pregnant women getting punched in the stomach. People being trampled underfoot. It makes me sick.
But enough of that.
I am now in the stage of planning my wedding. For those out there who had not heard, I am engaged to the most incredible woman, and we will be wed on April 13th, 2012. And yes, that is a Friday. Hehe. I am trying to figure out the move to Billings, whether I ought do it now or after the wedding. I need to have a root canal next week, and that is delaying me, and I am mulling over it.
Art wise, I am feeling creative like none other, after I expended myself in October for my "Monster Mash" series, where I did 31 drawings in about 5 weeks (mainly cause the last two were a week late) and am loving it.
All things considered, I am pretty happy.
28.11.11
20.9.11
Here it is
So I am going through some things in m head. I feel God has called me to move and help with the launch of our fourth campus for Fresh life. I am hoping I can get down there soon. I applied for a Hastings there in Billings, and will do the same for Barnes And Noble. Meetign with a guy to talk about it, and hoping I can get a set date for leaving.
Last weekend was the first Skull Church outside of Kalispell, we went and brought it to Missoula. It was intense. I met a guy who was convinced that Loki was going to consume him, he would be reborn with six wings and be a god himself. He was so convinced of it, and all this other stuff he talked about, these ancient gods he worshiped and all the occult things he was into. It scared me, because I was into that kinda stuff. it was like looking into what I coulda become. Had I not met God when i did, I could have become that guy. It shook me hard. I was crying all afternoon at the sadness of what he was, and praying for him all night, and thanking God for the changes in my life he did. I was reminded of how God is so incredible, how we change from the old ways to His way as we grow with Him. And yet, still I find myself in the old ways in some areas, and trying to keep that from happening, and failing. But God is good, He is quick to forgive.
well, i am signing off for this one. Cheers!
Last weekend was the first Skull Church outside of Kalispell, we went and brought it to Missoula. It was intense. I met a guy who was convinced that Loki was going to consume him, he would be reborn with six wings and be a god himself. He was so convinced of it, and all this other stuff he talked about, these ancient gods he worshiped and all the occult things he was into. It scared me, because I was into that kinda stuff. it was like looking into what I coulda become. Had I not met God when i did, I could have become that guy. It shook me hard. I was crying all afternoon at the sadness of what he was, and praying for him all night, and thanking God for the changes in my life he did. I was reminded of how God is so incredible, how we change from the old ways to His way as we grow with Him. And yet, still I find myself in the old ways in some areas, and trying to keep that from happening, and failing. But God is good, He is quick to forgive.
well, i am signing off for this one. Cheers!
11.8.11
Slw Down
Well, there have now been some setbacks in what I thought I would be doing. Honestly...I am ok with this. Something came to mind whilst looking through Proverbs the other day:
" Do not boast about tomorrow,
for you do not know what a day may bring." (Proverbs 27:1)
I seemed so hellbent on leaving in a few weeks I didn't stop to think if I was ready to leave or if the people who would take my place in the apartment were ready for that to happen. so many factors not running in sync. When I am ready, it will happen. I do not need to rush things, it is only a matter of time.
" Do not boast about tomorrow,
for you do not know what a day may bring." (Proverbs 27:1)
I seemed so hellbent on leaving in a few weeks I didn't stop to think if I was ready to leave or if the people who would take my place in the apartment were ready for that to happen. so many factors not running in sync. When I am ready, it will happen. I do not need to rush things, it is only a matter of time.
30.7.11
Turn the page
How many roads must a man walk down before you can call him a man?
Bob Dylan asked that in his song "Blowin' in the Wind", and it kinda hit me today. I am preparign to move to a new state, or at least trying to. I am essentially uprooting myself and going somewhere I am effectively on my own. Sure, i have friends there, and family in Seattle etc., but still, they are nto going to be the ones to support me.
I consider things here: I have an easy set up here, I am making do albeit barely, I am plugged into an active ministry and church. All my friends are here. Why move? Why leave all that?
Because I have to.
I will NOT let myself grow complacent. I am not satisfied with okay. I am not okay with alright. I want to rise up and be the man God wants em to be. I need to remember that there is always more you can learn about Him, and how He is. In my own life, I am seeing how little I truly know about my own passions in art, and if I want to do something with that, I need to shake off my pride and admit that. Pride goes before the fall, and a haughty spirit before destruction (Proverbs) and especially if I want to use my creative gifts to benefit God, I need to admit I have much to learn.
Its time to stop playing at grown-ups, and actually do something.
Bob Dylan asked that in his song "Blowin' in the Wind", and it kinda hit me today. I am preparign to move to a new state, or at least trying to. I am essentially uprooting myself and going somewhere I am effectively on my own. Sure, i have friends there, and family in Seattle etc., but still, they are nto going to be the ones to support me.
I consider things here: I have an easy set up here, I am making do albeit barely, I am plugged into an active ministry and church. All my friends are here. Why move? Why leave all that?
Because I have to.
I will NOT let myself grow complacent. I am not satisfied with okay. I am not okay with alright. I want to rise up and be the man God wants em to be. I need to remember that there is always more you can learn about Him, and how He is. In my own life, I am seeing how little I truly know about my own passions in art, and if I want to do something with that, I need to shake off my pride and admit that. Pride goes before the fall, and a haughty spirit before destruction (Proverbs) and especially if I want to use my creative gifts to benefit God, I need to admit I have much to learn.
Its time to stop playing at grown-ups, and actually do something.
16.6.11
Oy vey its been a while.
The concerts were awesome in May,. I saw Rammtein, met the drummer of SOAD, and saw SOAD all in one weekend! I am getting prepared to movwe to Washington. The time has come for me to shake off the dust of my ambitions, get over myself and admit I have a lot to learn when it comes to art and do something to make it happen. So Right now, as it stands I have a place there, and am looking for work there. All I need is the resources.
And....I need to figure the best way to tell my upstairs neighbor that they need to do something in the background...because I am getting pretty tired of hearing their sex.
The concerts were awesome in May,. I saw Rammtein, met the drummer of SOAD, and saw SOAD all in one weekend! I am getting prepared to movwe to Washington. The time has come for me to shake off the dust of my ambitions, get over myself and admit I have a lot to learn when it comes to art and do something to make it happen. So Right now, as it stands I have a place there, and am looking for work there. All I need is the resources.
And....I need to figure the best way to tell my upstairs neighbor that they need to do something in the background...because I am getting pretty tired of hearing their sex.
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