Spoiler Alert!

So guess what? You are going to die!

So am I.

Why start this off in that note? Simple. We never know when we are done on this earth. It's that easy. I hope to have 60 or more years left. I don't know if I am going to have that. Heck, I am not even promised tomorrow. Again, what's the point? Simple, yet again. We die, and then what? We go somewhere. Where? That my friend is where YOU (pointing dramatically out the screen at the reader) come in. You get to make the choice, where are we going to be for the grand space of time known as Eternity? Time unmeasurable. So vast it defies our limited human mind. Eternity scares me. Why? Because while I know where I am spending it, I know where some other people are going to as well. It will not be pretty. "Spoiler Alert!", the study we have going through at Skull Church, is making this very clear: Life sucks, then you die? Apart from God, we cannot enjoy anything. There is pleasure in it for a season but soon it takes more of that to get the fix, more and more till you are an addict, slave to whatever it is you place on a pedestal before you, be it your job, your car, anything. I know I have been guilty of this, for it should be God. Sometimes it is not. But now I know a lot of people who don't share my views, and please do not take this as an attack. All I know is the time is short. Three years ago a friend of mine was killed along with her brother on her way to start college. She didn't plan on dying that morning she left for Billings. But still it happened. Almost one year ago, someone very close to me was killed on a slippery road. He and I spoke mere hours before he died. And we hung out two days before, both of us serving at the church, and loving having God with us. But he died that night, and he died without warning. He was on his way home, and then suddenly he was gone. But, he and I will see each other again. We shall meet in Heaven. Spoiler alert!: Life is short, eternity is not. Where are you going? To Heaven, or Hell? There is no middle road. There is no on the fence. Jesus said "I am the way, the Truth the Life. No one gets to the father except through me" If there was another way to Heaven, why would Jesus have endured the worlds most painful death? Sitting there thinking on it, He began to sweat blood. BLOOD! He said, "If there is any other way, Father, please let this cup pass from Me," and then when no answer came, He said "Let YOUR will be done" There is no bones about it (no pun intended) if you do not accept Jesus, the Bible states you will be cast into the lake of fire. That which was meant for Lucifer and his angels. But for us human beings created in God's own image, it was never meant for us! To say 'well, I ain't for it, but not against it' SPOILER ALERT! Not making a decision IS making a decision. That would no. Jesus died on the hill shaped like a skull, that place Golgotha, and what held him to that cross? Love, not nails. Love for you and for me. Jesus rose from the dead. No one else can say that the leader who started their religion did that. I think I wanna follow the guy who beat the grave personally.People mock Jesus today, it is easy enough to do for some people. But i urge you, reader of this note: Take this into account. It is appointed for a man to be born, and to die. and we don't know when we are going to die. But the odds are pretty good it will happen. Have you seen the statistics on death? 1 in 1 odds? Them's a rich bet it will happen. Can you say that you know what will happen for sure? Or do you fear the hereafter? When you think about death do you lose your breath or keep your cool? Know this readers: accepting God in my life was the best hing I could ever have done. Without Him, I wouldn't be here. God saved me. Although i am weak, and mess up all the time, He forgives me, and always is there to hold me up, for I can do all through Christ who strengthens me. If you have been to church and felt God tug at your heart, do not fight it, surrender! Give you life to Him and watch Him change you! It will not be easy, Jesus was persecuted so shall His followers, but this way is better for you. So much better. God will change you into that which He intended you to be, if you but ask Him to forgive you, and come and live within you as His Holy Spirit does. Repent of your sins, and walk with Him, and follow Him. He will lead us to the greener pastures beyond that which I can imagine.And so if you feel compelled to attack me for posting this, whatever. I have the right to say this, YOU chose to read it.And now toy are in the knowledge of Christ and what He did for you on Calvary, that skull shaped hill.So it is all up to you. What do wish to have? Heaven, or Hell? Make the choice.

God Paged Me, pt.8

Written on Aug 26

Tonight, I was touched by God.

Dealing with a sticky situation, and I suddenly cried out "God! is this the right thing? Do I say no to this?"

And then I heard "Yes. Trust in Me, for I have a plan for you, and this is not it."

There was a pure, simple vocie. I could not hear any audio, but I HEARD it. And a few minutes later....

That same feeling all over and the voice, that still quiet whisper saying "yes, trust in Me."

"I have a plan."

even thinking about it,

i get a flashback feeling

I was then caught in the Spirit... I was touched by God Himself. I felt the warmth so much from His love I was sweating, next to an open window with 50 degree temperatures...

Shaking, I spoke...

in German.

I think what i said was "Father, who is in heaven, My God, give me strength, Your face in the light"

I cannot even begin to describe what he said.

It was so....


Im in tears! Literal tears!

Explain this?

I can't. I just felt something. there was no words that ui can use to describe it

This time He did not speak. it was just Him, wrapped in Him, surrounded by The Glory of Almighty God.

There are big things in store for me.I cannot wait to see where He takes me.


things are getting dark.
I am under some very real spiritual attack.
I am trying to not let the world get me down.


God Paged Me, Pt..6

I have decided that in 5 years, I want to be in Seattle. I want to be making a living off my art, and I have found myself drawn there. I feel God may be pulling me there. I don;t know though, it could be I just miss going there. Time will tell. I am also finally starting to really not give a rip about what others think of me, and not caring who knows my love for God. In fact, I WANT people to know it. I am becoming more vocal about it. I don't know what the future is going to be....but I am ready to face it with my Lord behind me.



Oy it has been a while. Sorry for that....oh wait, I don't think anyone actually reads this lol. Anyways, I have a new job. McDonalds ain't exactly the Rit, but hey its paying my bills, so I cannot complain. I also have a facebook fan page thingy now for my art specifically, search Art By Doty. Have some art hanging at a local cafe thing, so that is also cool. Other than that ntm else to really report, True Believers (yay Stan Lee ref) so, until next time i feel like ranting!


God Paged Me, Pt.5

I am coming to a decision. I am going to be scaling back on things. What do I mean? I am first and foremost, cutting down on serving at Fresh Life. Before y'all flip, hear this: I am still going to be doing every other Sunday, and Wednesday. I however will not being in FLG the next go around, and not going to serve Saturdays. Veritas is something that I like, I will make it, but if I don't every single week, the world will not stop spinning, flinging us all into the cosmos. The strain of 5 days at church a week and trying to find a job , and just general stress over the last two months has taken a toll, and I am actually combating illness right now for it. I am also trying to get employment, and having as much free time as possible will be a boost (much more so than the dang hair cut). Also, as I find myself being more drawn to music, now that I have a few nights more free, I think I now have the time to really focus on my guitar, writing as wella s art in general. I am putting apps in where I can, and will continue to until I find work.


God Paged Me, pt. 4

.."I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I"m never alone

And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life

We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen"- Barlow Girl 'Never Alone'

This has been a twisted road. I feel things compelling me to put comprimises on that which I tell myself I cannot. Things that are pulling my towards that which is not good. Correction: In THIS time, it is not. Later down the road yes. Not right now. I had a big rant last night about things, how unfair life was, why good people seem to suffer alot. I sat there in tears, and anger and sorrow and pain and brief moments of ending things to get away from pain for good flashed by. This morning, I awoke feeling like crap. I am hurting. It is hurt because of how i am different, and many don't seem to understand why. They are so set in their patterns that anything different is not good. I am so feeling like Job right now! He ahd a 20 odd chapter rant about how unfair things were, but in the end rememebred that all things come from God, and for a reason. Love DOES exisit. Jesus loved all he knew even those who were driving nails into his hands. "Father forgive them for they know not what they do" (Luke 23:34) I mean seriously? He prayed for those who were driving nine inch spikes into His arms, and felt nothing but love for them. I am so reminded by the song lyrics above about that. God is with me, even when no one else is.


It has been quite some time. I honestly forgot about it. No one reads this anyway though, so I am not sure why i add more posts.